I'm not forced to love you, it's because I choose to.

jessetorres358
Mar 17, 2024
3 min read

Updated: Aug 4, 2024

Day care Years!!!!

As a kid, I remember dressing up in dresses and heels every time I had the chance. My mom used to leave us kids alone in the house to go to work, so my older brother Noe would take care of us. Those times were so different; they weren't as strict as today. Both of my parents had to go to work in order to survive. So, every time they left, I would put on my sister's heels and my mom's dresses every chance I had.

I knew that I was different, even as a kid. My body felt as if I were a female. My mom once told me that when she was pregnant with me, she wanted a baby girl. I also know a friend who is my gay friend; he told me that his mom also wanted a girl when she was pregnant with him. Maybe it's something with the mom's hormones when she's pregnant.

I don't remember much about when I was a kid, but I do remember some parts of my daycare years. I used to watch Wonder Woman a lot, and my mom hated me for watching that show. She would tell me to turn it off all the time when it was on. What was it about Wonder Woman that my mom hated? I never asked her, but as I grew older, she still didn't like her. I ended up having a collection of the original Wonder Woman to show that she was my idol. So, every time I would buy something from Wonder Woman, my mom would roll her eyes.

Many years later, I ended up going to school with girls that I hung out with. I found out that their mom was my daycare teacher. Imagine the surprise I had when my daycare teacher lived in my hometown all this time. Social media has made it easier for us to get in contact with each other. I asked her if she could tell me stories of how I was as a kid. A lot of the things she mentioned, I do remember.

I asked her for a favor. I asked her if she could write a little summary of what she remembered so I could write it on my blog. So, I did better than what she wrote on paper; I just copied and pasted it into this story. "So, you see, kids don't just turn gay." We are born like this, and there are times we want to go further and become something that we have always wanted to be. So, if your child comes to you and tells you that they think they're different, they probably are. Listen to them; don't reject them or get mad at them. They, as kids, are rapidly finding out who they are and what they want to be in their lives.

The older generation did the same thing when they were kids. They found out what they wanted to do and be when they grew older. So don't judge quickly, because you were not judged when you were a kid. Everyone had a chance to figure out who they wanted to be, so let the future generations figure out who they want to be. The only thing that we could do is love everyone and educate for the better. No one can go wrong there.

I leave you with my daycare teacher's story about me. I hope you can see we don't turn gay; it's something we are born with and feel. So, if I decide to love you, take it because everyone needs to be loved. I'm not loving you because I'm forced to; I'm loving you because I choose to.

I dedicate this story to all future kids who will probably feel scared of coming out to people who are so ignorant of others. Keep finding who you are; don't ever give up. You could only fail if you gave up.

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